I certainly relied all the help from above, I could muster up with my last 2 children, and I called on their brother to watch over them. Now my Angel must watch carefully over all us left here. I have lost my Dad and Grandparents on both side of my family and now his grandfather died in 1998. Now we have him watching from above to keep us safe.

 

Andrew would have been doing the Higher School Certificate in the year 2000  and I supervised the half Yearly exams at Jacqualine's school that year & I could not help but think of him doing the same exams at his brother's school. Maybe even friends, with girls in these classes. Some I notice were born same month of 1981.

 

My best Judy friend has a boy the same age as Andrew and when I see what a good looking man he has grown up to be today, it brings tears to my eyes even today as I write this. I just never thought I would ever be this long without not seeing him. Actually I just never thought I would last this long and survive the grieving process at all. I would never have got though all the grief if it had not been for my faith.

 

The birth of Matthew 2 years later gave my body and mind time to heal and then of course I started the next step worrying about will this happen again. We had similar concerns with the next two and those were difficult years as they both had reflux, proved with X Rays and Jacqualine was born with Gastric Ulcers, Giardia, Gastritis, so our lives were very busy for a long while..

 

Babies should not be born with Gastric Ulcers that bleed and diseases that are mainly associated with people who suffer with Alcoholism. No medication was available in suitable formation for babies. No one could make the doses up because the amount need could not be dispensed by Pharmacist. The hospital eventually made them up in cigarette papers.

 

That diagnosis came when she was pitifully thin and ill when she was 5 months old. They had previously told me not to continue breast feed her, Thank God I did not listen to them as the new Doctor told me that she could not digest any formulas. They thought that after 6 children maybe my milk was not good enough. Not so.....

 

I persisted in doing that anyway. She was soiling 20 nappies a day. I could almost kiss the ground the Specialist walked on when he gave me the diagnosis of her litany of problems. I knew it was not me. These were all found when a Gastroscopy done Christmas Eve of 1986.

 

I know Andrew he is safe in heaven and one day I hopefully will met up with him again. Will he know me? I pray to God I am good enough to meet him.

 

Australia developed the first Red Nose Day seeking public awareness and have enough funds to reduce the amounts of babies that are lost. This campaign has been the most successful in the world for schemes to eliminate SIDS, and reduce their numbers. The money raised has halved the death rate in Australia. That means half the amount of parents have not had to endure the loss of a child with this Syndrome. The researchers have gained so much ground when they had the funds to research this topic in greater depth.

 

He suffered with reflux and although not much was know about the relation to this and SIDS then, now it is far more commonly known. He was never resting without pain and crying.

 

Over the years I have learnt lots of wonderful crafts and it was through Decoupage that once again drew me to search for Angel pictures. The Net was the answer to my dreams.

 

The Victorian Era provided many visions of these wonderful, graceful creatures. Some with Cherubic features and bird like feathered wings. Cupids also appeal to me with their similar cuteness. Angels have a kind of magic about them. The word 'angel' comes from the Greek work 'angelos', meaning messengers. Angels are also believed to serve as guardians, guides, teachers, healers - even warriors.

 

I have spent many hours collecting and scanning Angels I have actually deleted some of my earlier saved pictures because I just kept stumbling across so many more Angels that were of better standard. I really changed and became quite fussy.  I use them in my craft pictures and home made presents, poems for my friends and just to adorn our walls here at home.

 

The church have their Archangels Angels like Saint Michael and Saint Gabrielle. Our church is St Michael's and his feast day is 29 September. Michael was often depicted with a sword. Chief among the angel-princes, Michael is sometimes a warrior-angel, appearing as such in the Old Testament books of Enoch and Daniel. Revelations says, it is Michael who leads an army of God's Angels against Satan. Michael is an angel of repentance, mercy, and righteousness, appearing in Islamic, Jewish, and Christian 'angelology'. Gabriel's symbol is the Lily.

A messenger angel who appeared to both the Virgin Mary and Muhammad, Gabriel is the Angel of Annunciation, heavenly mercy, resurrection, and revelation. Gabriel was told to blow the horn announcing the second coming of Christ. In Islamic tradition, Gabriel is the angel of humanity, the spirit of truth. Raphael is often shown carrying a pilgrim's staff. An archangel and chief among the guardian angels, Raphael has special charge of protecting the young, the innocent, and travellers. He is the angel of prayer, love, joy, light, providence, and healing.

 

There are many outstanding sites to see some Angels and I have listed some to take a look at. These pages have many more Angel and Grief Support Links that will keep you going for months.

 

The song you hear playing on these 2 pages if from Jon & Vangelis, 'I'll Find my Way Home'. This song was on the radio around the time of his death. The words to this song are just perfect. ' No question I'm not alone, somehow I'll find my home'. I still find it hard to listen to this tune. Eerie words believe me?

I'LL FIND MY WAY HOME

You ask me where to begin
Am I so lost in my sin
You ask me where did I fall
I'll say I can't tell you when
But if my spirit is lost
How will I find what is near
Don't question I'm not alone
Somehow I'll find my way home

My sun shall rise in the east
So shall my heart be at peace
And if you're asking me when
I'll say it starts at the end
You know your will to be free
Is matched with love secretly
And talk will alter your prayer
Somehow you'll find you are there.

Your friend is close by your side
And speaks in far ancient tongue
A seasons wish will come true
All seasons begin with you
One world we all come from
One world we melt into one

Just hold my hand and we're there
Somehow we're going somewhere
Somehow we're going somewhere

[interlude]

You ask me where to begin
Am I so lost in my sin
You ask me where did I fall
I'll say I can't tell you when
But if my spirit is strong
I know it can't be long
No questions I'm not alone
Somehow I'll find my way home
Somehow I'll find my way home
Somehow I'll find my way home
Somehow I'll find my way home

Now you know why I bought my domain name 'Angel of Oz' because of my love of Angels & Oz (Australia).

 

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